It's all in the family?

Hello,
It has been a while since I have written. I have been busy working and trying to keep my DH and I's spirit up. Not doing so well.
Not at all.
So today we had drama. DRAMA. big time DRAMA.
Why is it when people get what they want they are still unhappy and then still hate?
My DH's brother managed to lie and manipulate to force myself and all my children out of this family business. He got what he wanted. My kids are all gone. The youngest one is working part-time after school a couple of days a week. So the brother-in-law (I think I refered to him as Satan in an earlier post) had to get on facebook and send a message to my niece (who I love) about how bad of people we are and how much we hate her. LIES! LIES! LIES! and this all started because my daughter (who is about the sweetest, bestest girl I know) commented on my neices status about how she was excited to see her because they are moving back here. What has my daughter ever done to him?
This is the daughter that has worked for the family business since she was 12. When she was 13 - Satan called her a B****!. She cried for weeks. This was when we implemented the code work "chicken noodles". She was scared for her physical safety at work and if that ever came over the radio or loudspeaker we knew we had to go help and FAST!! By the way....did I mention she was 13? She would never work without me or one of her brothers also working because she was scared. She is now 20 and is a mature and beautiful young woman who desires to do good at all times.
So my DH went to Satan and said he wanted to bring my beautiful daugher back to help in this certain area of the family business. She is very knowledgeable about the product and can work with customers, etc. She also has great handwriting and makes cute signs for the products. The brother (Satan) flipped out and went running to daddy (my father-in-law) to probably fill him up with lies, etc.
My DH followed and had a word war with his dad and his brother. To add to the story my DH's nickname at this family business was the "bastard child" by other employees. Kind of explains how he gets treated by his father and brother. So he told his dad he was sick of how he is treated and how my children are treated and he quit. His dad doubled up his fists and came at him to hit him (anyone thinking of Orange County Choppers here?) My husband told my Crazy FIL to "F*** off" and sped away.
Now he is home and depressed.
Depressed because of how he handled it.
Depressed because of how his family is.
I'm so tired of this.
Why are people like this?
How do you get through this? How can he be part of his family without letting them hurt?
I need anyone's help that I can.
I pray constantly.
I still need more help.

Toxic envirnoment

So....I thought I could do it. I thought it would be okay. Boy, was I wrong!!
I thought I could go back to work at H.E.L.L. to help my DH (dear husband).
I just wanted to help him, plant some flowers, design some baskets, get stuff ready.
Just thinking about going back last night gave both of us upset stomachs...you know the kind the sends you running to the bathroom a couple of times???
Walking in today my stomach was churning, I was shaking, just wanted to run back to my cute car...get in it and go home.
But I was strong....I could help my DH!
Wow. It took everything that I had.
Then my CFinL (crazy father-in-law) had to confront my husband about making sure I punched in and out with the time card. Like I never used to??? Come on!!
Hate burning a hole in my chest.
I hate that I hate.
I hate that I even care what these people think.
I hate that I care that they lie about me and my family.
What is wrong with me?
Why do I care about people that are so toxic that everything they touch goes bad?
I know I don't want to feel like this.
but i do
I have been trying to find another job somewhere where there aren't so many crazy,
toxic people.
My DH thinks that I have too much hate in me to be blessed with another job and that I have to get over it.
he's right
but how?
He saw a news show about a boy who shot his preacher father in the head and then shot his mother four times killing him. Miracles of miracles the father didn't die. The show was about how he forgave his son.
I think that is amazing and wonderful.
I wish I could be like that.
But I had to explain to DH that this situation is like being shot in the heart....working on forgiveness...... and them coming back in and shooting me in the heart...again....and then working on forgiveness....and them coming back in and shooting me in the heart....again....and again.....
How do I go forward?
I'm hurting.
crying
sick
I wake up in the night just shaking with fear and anger
help

So.....this is a blog about bad people/stuff that happens to you and how you overcome it without it taking your soul. This is my journey back from hell and how I am working to find forgiveness and not let all the bad overcome me. I named his blog Overcoming Dementors because when I read Harry Potter and they described what a dementors was.....I knew exactly.....because I work(ed) for one (plus). If you don't know what a dementor is ....this is what it is.....

A Dementor is considered one of the foulest creatures to walk the earth....

they glory in decay and despair,

they drain

peace,

hope

and happiness

out of the air around them.

get too near a dementor and

every good feeling,

every happy memory will be

sucked

out of you.

So...not to sugar coat it or anything...but I am acquainted (worked) with a dementor. To top it all off it was

family????

AHHHHHHH!

I'm on a journey to recovery.

Some days I'm full of forgiveness.

Some days....NOT!

I do know that I H.A.T.E. how i feel when i feel hateful,angry,mad,hurt!

I don't want to be this.

Does anyone there have any experiences or suggestions on how they got through this?

I will be posting more on the history of what happened in further posts.

Maybe.....not all of it.

It's FAMILY after all!

hahahahaha